Even though I love the holidays, it seems like time is going by so fast. I mean, I remember exactly what I was doing last year, how I was feeling, what I wanted...like it was yesterday.
So much has changed since "yesterday", yet nothing is like what I expected, which isn't necessarily bad at all :)
Expectations are boring anyway, and I'm starting to be okay with that, and embrace the randomness, mystery and surprises that life brings better than before. Let's hope I continue making progress.
The past six months have been difficult because I was dealing with being, for the first time, in power of my life, my decisions, and I was trying to figure out what I was going to do now that I was done with school. Being out of a structured life that has been built for me since birth, and now having the freedom and responsibility to create a new structure has proven to be quite a task!
I began feeling very anxious about my future: what if I never find what I like to do? What if I make the wrong decisions and make myself unhappy? What if I'm stuck feeling doubtful forever? What if...
Though I am still dealing with questions, doubts and some anxiety attacks, I have high hopes and a really good feeling about this last month of 2011. A bit less questioning, a bit more action-doing! The ultimate goal is to enjoy.
"Life is too important to be taken seriously" - Oscar Wilde
On a different note, today I can finally start my Advent Calendar :P and God knows I love my chocolate, so this can only be a good a sign!
Sending warm thoughts your way,
xoxo
C'est le même que Domitille ton calendrier !!!!
ReplyDeleteMoi je n'arrivais pas a trouver le 1 ce matin !
Christine